Springsteen

Not Bruce specifically. The Eric Church song. One of the lines seems to really resonate with me.  Allow me to share:

"Funny how a melody sounds like a memory. Like a soundtrack to a July Saturday night. Springsteen."

Maybe it's the back to school time of year. Maybe it's the "School Daze" playlist on my iPod on repeat blasting horribly wonderful boy bands and angsty teenage songs.  Maybe it's just part of getting older. Whatever it is, I've been overly nostalgic for my high school/college years.

Which makes ABSOLUTELY no sense.

Ask anybody who knew me then or has heard me talk about these times now and they would think you were lying if you told them I missed high school. As a matter of fact, if someone told me I would feel this way 3 or 4 years ago, I would have laughed in their crazy face.

But as I was driving to work this morning, I thought about my high school group of friends. An incredible group of ladies! An artist/art restorer in Europe, an educator, a pharmacy tech, a mother (which is by far the most astonishing!), and a...well...me! As I'm driving with my window down trying to work on my farmers tan on my left arm, I all the sudden think of planning a reunion sleepover for the whole gang. This-of course- is impossible. Mostly because of things like distance, schedules, and families to work around. However, under ideal conditions, I wouldn't be above raiding my mother's house to have a stay-up-all-night-pretzel-eating-soda-drinking-truth-or-dare-playing-movie-making birthday bash! Or it could be at L's house- and I would do the cinnamon challenge against her again (and win again!). Or at M's while listening to The Who or The Beegees on vinyl while playing poker. Or at R's  and play the guitar on her mom's front porch or ride around in the back of her dad's truck under a countless number of stars as the heat lightning  jumped and danced on the horizon.

Maybe I'm just trying to relive a simpler time. Before I had bills, and a job, and other ridiculous adult responsibilities.

It really was a great time. I'm blessed to have had a group of freaks that I could relate with. The group may have disbanded to grow up, but now I've got another great group who embrace the chaos of knowing me.  And that's a fair trade if there ever was one.

"Even though you're a million miles away, when you hear Born in the USA , do you relive those Glory Days so long ago?  When you think about me, do you think about 17? Do you think about my old jeep? Think about the stars in the sky? Funny how a melody sounds like a memory. Like a soundtrack to a July Saturday night. Springsteen."

Sunday Morning Coming Down...

I really do love that Johnny Cash song. And although I am not coming down from being stoned or drunk, I am coming down from the baby mania that has been sweeping over my family and taking control of my weekends.

I am going to be an aunt for the first time in July. I am excited to meet my sweet little L, but I may need a break from looking at tiny outfits and hearing older moms stay in awe of how many bottle choices there are "now a days".

I'm in a very different place in my life, no where near baby mode. Sometimes I think I may be on the highway going in reverse while everyone else is in fifth gear. And if I let myself, I will become sad- or even worse- start the endless game of what ifs and longing for the left big life stage. Because that would make me happy and whole, right?

Wrong.

When I was in middle school, I remember thinking that my life was going to be much better if I could just get to high school. Then in high school I convinced myself that college was where it was at and I just HAD to get there. After years at college , all I wanted was out! Once I graduated, then life would be legit and there would be much rejoicing!

As I sit on my couch as a college graduate I can honestly say that it would be easy to sit and long for a husband, a house, maybe even a puppy. And if we are being completely honest, I do that on occasion. It would admittedly be nice. But I can't allow myself to live in the what ifs.

I'm trying to live my life in the moment. Where I am at right now in life is pretty awesome. I spend my free time (when I'm not committed to attending or throwing a shower) doing literally whatever I want. I can go to concerts and plan road trips on a whim. I can play my new Neil Young album over and over again with no one protesting. And I can play it was loud as I want.

I guess what I'm trying to say is those weren't the good ol' days, or those will be the best days of my life - THESE are the days!

It's been too long.

In the off chance that anyone is still reading this (which would shock me!)...how are you? It's been a while.

Instead of starting my spring cleaning I thought I would type a little something up. At this point I think I may do anything other than start this massive undertaking.

Got to drive around tonight, listen to some positive/Christian music. I was going to do this for lint but I skipped lint... It's about grace anyway right? I think it's beneficial to clear out your mind of all the crap that bogs us done. I am considering limiting my TV time as well. Just need to get back to basics. I'm oh so exciting- try not to be jealous!

Well if you are reading this, you should leave me a comment so when I log in again 6 months from now I will get a pleasant surprise!

new summer music!

Major discoveries this summer in the wonderful world of music! To be fair to all others I have heard and fallen in love with this summer, these were just the first two to come to mind!


John Mayer- Queen of California (from Born and Raised)



and....drum role please!

Dawes- A little bit of everything (from Nothing is Wrong)



I loved both of these from the first time I heard them and have been guilty of keeping both of them on repeat for days at a time!

Enjoy and Happy Friday!

Just 3 days shy of 6 months, I decided to blog!

Oh the horror! An abandoned blog! They are infesting the Internet world wide! Let's recap the last 6 months...

I graduated from college! Yay!



I had amazing shoes for the occasion (which just so happen to be my "single again" shoes...I feel that you should buy shoes for major events/occasions in your life!) Also, my cap was legit! Complete with a 45!



And of course what would graduating be without a party! One of my favorite parties that I have ever had!



And what what would a party be without music!



I wish I could say that the rest of the summer had been crazy eventful...but that would be a lie. It has been a good one though even without traveling and crazy adventure! 

Sorry I abandoned you, poor little blog! Rachel loves you...kinda. =P

told you!

I told you I would post something fun and cheery to redeem myself after yesterday! Also, I need some new music in my life, any suggestions?

6 years.

I listen to these same two songs on this day every year. Well, at least for the past 5 or so. These are my melancholy songs. Tomorrow I will post something ridiculously cheery to make up for these two, promise!